I used to have clinical depression.
Like, a really hardcore depression where I fantasised about hanging myself and was paralyzed and couldn’t walk through the door. It was the reason why I dropped out of high school.
It was really bad.
So when I went vegan and found this beautiful lifestyle I am living right now, I thought I was already recovering and the changes couldn’t possibly hurt me. I was so sure that my past was behind me and I can finally move on.
But I found myself slowly slipping back to depression once I started to transition to being vegan.
Suddenly I was angry at the whole world and no matter how hard I tried I just couldn’t see the light at the end of the tunnel. I was irritated, stressed and sad all the damn time.
It was really scary because I was making progress before I decided to change my habits and now I was making my mental health even worse.
It took some time before I realized that I have to step up my game and do some major damage control. I had to take responsibility for my own mental health and find the root causes.
That’s when I started to really seek compassion inside my heart and actively trying to be nicer to people who were not vegan. It was also the time when I was starting my journey of an activist.
More and more I was realizing that I can’t live with depression and anger anymore. It was taking too much from me and I had to find a different approach to living.
I had to stop being angry at everyone and realize that the only way I can save other animals is if I become compassionate and joyful.
If you find that your depression gets worse once you go vegan I suggest that you:
- Seek professional help if needed. I am in no way a doctor and if you feel like you are unable to handle depression please find someone who is licensed to help. Just a few months ago I went to a psychiatrist and three months ago I was going to therapy. I am constantly trying to stay ahead of my mental health so that it can never break me ever again.
- Find people who went through a similar thing as you. I am just one of them but I am not everyone’s cup of tea so find others with whom you can connect and talk to if needed. I encourage you to follow me on Instagram where we can talk and connect if you resonate with my message.
- Take it slowly. Perhaps you need to slow down the changes and just make small daily steps that will create a big change in your life eventually. I wrote about this in one of my previous posts that you can read here. It is perfectly okay if you need some time before you go fully vegan. It took me 11 months to fully transition and I wouldn’t have it any other way.
I am like a broken record sometimes because I keep repeating the same thing: You are a priority! You need to put yourself first!
I think it is so important that you help yourself before you try helping anyone else. After all, if you are sick and depressed, how long before you break and something bad happens?
Sometimes we will have to step back and get healthy before we will make huge changes in our life, and sometimes we will be able to do both – handle our mental health and new habits we are implementing.
Was this your story? Did your depression get worse once you went vegan? What did you do? Let me know in the comments.
I wish you nothing but the best,