Did I write about this already?
Anyway, doesn’t matter.
Today I want to write about something that breaks me in the middle of the night sometimes. The hardest part of having an open heart and knowing what is happening to trillions of conscious beings around the planet Earth.
Knowing the truth.
The toughest part of being vegan is knowing what is happening. Having the knowledge of how they are killed and knowing what the screams sound like.
Every time I see a truck with pigs, chickens or cows in it, I break a little bit. I know what will happen to them and I know they already suffered more than I ever will. But I can’t help them because their lives don’t matter in this society.
Another thing that kills me? Seeing dead fish at the store, their little eyes filled with pain and fear, their open mouth that was letting out silent screams when they were being pulled from the water and tortured by humans.
What have they done? What crimes did they commit?
People want to protect serial killers, rapists and paedophiles from being put to death, but they pay for the murder of innocent beings every single fucking day.
Where is justice in that? Where is the compassion? Where is the logic?
These hypocrites judge me for supporting the death penalty but defend themselves when I tell them they are supporting the same damn thing only not for evil creatures but for those whose only crime was not being born as a human.
That’s the hardest part.
Having my hands tied. Being alone in the street, witnessing these death trucks passing by and saying how sorry I am, knowing that people around me don’t give a fuck.
But I wouldn’t want to live any other way. I love being vegan. I love knowing that I am doing the right thing and that fewer animals are killed because of me. I would rather die inside every time I am reminded of the cruelty humans possess than be blind to the truth.
If you are struggling with the same thing, here is something I do to feel better. I hope it helps you, too.
It’s the same thing with human suffering. Knowing that slavery still exists in certain countries, that people are being put to death because they dare question god, that newborns are raped, that humans are kidnapped and sold on the dark web etc.
All these things are dark but they are real. They are happening all the time and I want to know about them so that I can do something. Anything.
Our world is cruel and unfair and dark, and the only way I can do something about it is if I have my eyes, mind and heart open to the truth.